tues dec 20,2011 about 9 p.m. so broke

 well, i have to go to doc tommorow, b.f. going to take me yay. i have no money to buy any presents. i wish i knew if he was going to do what he ussually does. i cant even pay my esectic now. its very scary to be in this limbo. still going home after first of yr. very stressers for me. i am hoping i can keep up the exsersising at home. i have to start cooking for myself. no moore microwave meals and half loafs of bread for briedfast, im so used to being around people now. i live w/ son but ya know how that is. might as well be alone. ok, didnt do much today at all. still havnt had touchdown. too much meat and not enough fruit n veggies. got to do the prunes again. bummer. need to drink way moore water;. ok, thats it for now. maybe moore later if not for sure tommorow.............