ok, ill try again to do this mon dec 19,2011

well, i tried to write a journal this morning and it went away again, of course it was after i wrote alot and for a long time. that i s wene it ussually happens. trying to look at screen instead of the keys again. its working ok i guess. well, we went to the buffet again today for lunch. i ate not too bad but not so good, then came back and laied down, that wasnt good. doc office called aind i have my apt on this wed not next week, bummer. cant call the medicaid ride not enougj time, so have to ask b.f. to take me and if not sis, she will not like that at all. still going to atunts house this week to make cookies. yay. got some exsersise today in the p.m. then did some in the bed. so im just writing a few things down so i have something. hope b.f. doesnt hav a coniptiong fit when i ask him to take me on wed. i do need to go so i can get my meds straitend out. they dont knwo what they are doing now there? i dont get it. oh well. still wont see my real doc prob ever again. that is a real bummer for mel  now the shrink will be different, ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!  i should be schocked that im not shoked. figures. feeling a little better about going home i guess. its goiing to be so hard. ok, well thats it for now and prob tonight. ok, by wish me luck w/ stupid b.f. still havnt heard from oldest son again figures. ok, over and out.