still mad and sad and all that crap tues dec 6,2011

oh my. im very nervoius and still very mad and sad. how can he make me feel so bad. im so sorry that ive been taking it for so long. i must be a glutin for punishment, know im my own worst enamy, but i just dont know much esle.just checked on electric help, they havnt entered it into computer yet, WHAT? this is no good. im realy scared now. i dont think im going to get anything for xmas this year so i dont knwo how i will even pay the bills. oh well. i keep saying that, but OMG im scared. ok, moore later maybe...........cant type now tooo shacky to type now will try later maybe so depressed and nervoius.