still not well mon nov 20,2011 10.30 a.m.

well i feel like shit again today. have to go w/ sis to aunts house later and help her shop for thanks giving. im sooo cold. think when i lost the weight, im not so hot anymoore, which is good, now im cold. and my body wants that fat back. im fighting my own body. it wants and is used to the extra weight, and now i get cold of all things. still get the hot cold flashes of course. forgot to take sleeping pill AGAIN had terrible night. so i will have to go back and lay down. im realy trying hard not to sleep too much. i stiffen up so easy. my hip isint as bad, maybe i just did too much at a time. ya know haow i am all or nothing. or i never finish  ANYTHING I START. im realy bad at that. everyone is comming here for the holiday. my sis is very nervouixs, of course im broke as ussuall. trying to find my son some dental clinic, good luck, he is in dier straits w/ these horrible teeth. i feel so bad for him. i know he sis it to himself, but i still know all about it. he has my bad dental unfortunatly. im so confused. must go home eventiually. im so afraid still. ok, thats it for now. maybe will try to get on later tonight after the shopping. ok, by for nwo. must take my xanex, shaking bad now cant type. ok, the end