gimmestrength2008

well i was feeling ok till called b.f. he wasin a mood, i dont know why i even bother. he knows how to make me feel bad better than anyone els. he is such a (cant think of word means everything...

 well here i am again, didnt even do a journal page or fill out all my paper journals. im going to be completely out of pain pills tommorow night. i am vdery afraid. on a high note. my bad legs now...

ya its so nice to see my youngest. he missed his buss so is spending the night tonight. he has a cold which i think is just allergies. he went and got burger king yum cant eat it. my foot has swollen...

well i took the very last of my noe half of the oxi, now ni have none. ahhhhhh. i still have some hydros, but soon i will be completely out. im still terrified about that.will have to find something...

wel, son came out today to get some money from me for cigs and a little food, he took 3 busses to get here. i wasnt even awake yet. i dont wake up very happy. sis made him some eggs and we ate...

well, i is pretty sad that i have to go off these pills so fast. i still very much hurt, esspecialy after the last fall on my ass. i know i wrote about it earlier, but its very much on my mind alot....

well i saw the home nurse today, tolds her about my anxiaty about running out of hydrocodein. she ssays the doc prob WONT  perscribe me anymoore. so im very worried. im in pain still exxpecially my...

well another terrible night. slept at leaste 8 or 9 hrs. but i feel as ussuall like i got no sleep. its sooo hard to be comfortable, i wake up sooo many times in night, have to move. these pain pills...

well another terrible night. slept at leaste 8 or 9 hrs. but i feel as ussuall like i got no sleep. its sooo hard to be comfortable, i wake up sooo many times in night, have to move. these pain pills...

well, today wasnt too bad. got up late again as ussuall. i never want to go to sleep like now cause im up and i feel my best at night. dont waqnt to sleep the whole day away and end up like i allways...

well im much better than wene i woke up today. i was very deppressed, almost drying. i was so deppressed. there was a miss comunication that started a big thing w/ me n my sis. i just gave in because...

well, i went to wee the sergon. he says im doing about normal. will see me in ONE MONTH that means i cant put weight on my bad leh. so i will be here for at leaste.that long. im so sure they will...

well i finnaly got ahold of youngest son. he had answer machine so cloged up by not ever deleating anything. so of course i was concerned when couldnt get ahold of him. talked to oldest son today and...

well here i am. itws about 11 p.m. sis and bro in law msleeping. son called me a t 5 a.m. and of course he is sick . he had to go to the ER, of course his mouth is of corse swollen AGAIN. HE HAD To...

well, im just writing  a very little amount, need to go to bed. nurse coming in morning. butt still hurts untill i get enough pain meds in me. i hurt bad in the morning. have to wake up in middle of...