gimmestrength2008

well, i just took my xanex only 2 and a half. also took the kava kava and pashion flower. i think the herbs are helping. i accually will maybe still have xanex till end of month  for a change. yay....

well, im back on finnally. son is at colledge. couldnt be soon enough. its been a long time sence on here. dont know how much time ill have on here. jammin to some guns and roses right now. i can...

well, i have to get off here. going to watch walle again. love that little guy. will probly not be on here much till the 15th when son goes bafck to school. might try later. have to take meds and eat...

well, its about time this crapp ass yr was over. there was so much sickness and death this yr. moore than ever. i am realy going to try to get my shit together this yr. i have to . im sooo fat....

well, had to take my xanex couldnt type anymoore too schackey. waiting for them to kick in so i can write better. got the gatoraid, have to rehydaite. so dehydrated from being so sick. cant seem to...

well, i got my sick ass up at 6 a.m. met b.f. in lot and he got my window fixed. it was only 60.00 im soo  glad maybe ill still get some money for xmas. if not im so screwed. he is so good to me. i...

i found this new group i never saw fefore. its called a safe place to fall.  awsome name. its for everyone whohas ever been abused  anyway, not just pyhsical, but mental and emational abuse...

well, its been about 2 weeks now. still very sick. dic called me in ammoxicilin, its so very strong and makes me very sick. supposed to go \get car fixed at 8.30 a.m. tomorow and i dnt know if i can...

well. i looked dodwn and there it is. my cars drivers window in car will not go back up for nothing. had to get son to help me take trash bags to it in hopes ofitr not raining inthe car. cant tell,...

well. i looked dodwn and there it is. my cars drivers window in car will not go back up for nothing. had to get son to help me take trash bags to it in hopes ofitr not raining inthe car. cant tell,...

well. i looked dodwn and there it is. my cars drivers window in car will not go back up for nothing. had to get son to help me take trash bags to it in hopes ofitr not raining inthe car. cant tell,...

i dont know wht lately asspecially have been waking up in mornig or whenever, and i have such a heavy heart, dont know how im holding it up. im so sad and melincally, i feel so old. i wish i would...

well, its still the same day. just now took my night time meds, so im going to go make me some outmeal. my feet hurt so bad and ar sooo swollen, tooo much jusnk i been eating. listening to the radio,...

well, im back up now. slept for about 3 hrs. my feet and hands are so swollen from bad food. going to eat oatmeal tonight. coffee maker just made me a whole pot of coffee. i dont know why things dont...

ok, im back again. forgot i was still on here. sis called and i went to my own little world. glad i checked. dont want to leave tis thing on ever. ok, took my xanex,s. waiting for them to kick in so...