gimmestrength2008

so well am on sis computer lissaning to my cris dauhgtry on the computer while im writing or i should say tying to type, did some exersisies but i havnt but havent ben koing faithfully for a bout 4...

well i got up and ui feel pretty good right now i know the pain will come, but ok for now listening to some old styx music very helpfull. i beleive thats what got me threw the shit hle they have the...

well it sabout 10.30 p.m. we left ffor  er at about 10.45 went to urgent care we wwere there for about 3 .5 hrs just to have them tell us they couldnt help me. they say go to er. I FREAKED again. i...

well im bak from the hell hole they call a nursing home. it was the most horrible pkace ive ever been to. i saw things there i cant un see. was so blocked couldnt go for 3 weeks it was the worst...

well, i was doing pretty well, until this morning. i woke up so paniced, im just now hitiing me and im afraid.i have made myself so sick from worrying and not eating enough  so im sick. so im going...

well, its about 1.30 mhere now. got up super early. 2   moore days till surgury. yay. im so happy and a little scared.  startiong tp dp a little             work for myself. its so...

last time i was at docs he said my colestorol was down about half way. so thats greqat. still on tricor. not down enough but its better yay me.....

sunday  before the surgury  it si thursday.  am in pain taday alot. im very nervoise. i have to type with keybourd on my lap because of this stupid brace and wheel chairl i have so much respect...

well, here i am i in my third floor apt and guess what? ya you are rite its storming AGAIN. i realy cant watch anything to do with this. im so terrified of storms now. never was before. i feel like...

well here i am. its been sence march sence i got on here. things are still the same . still fight ing w. son as ussually. he left for the night and its probly for the best. i get so mad and cannot...

oh my god my stomack  is getting so big. blue jeans wanted to cut me in half. im sick again. i think its all my smoking. got an electronic cig, tastes funny. have bad chest congestion. having...

well, here it is my 50th bday and here i sit. my party was cancelled of cousres. it snowed  AGAIN. so no party no presents, no cake, nothin. figures, i should have known. my oldest son was going to...

well, the heavy snow didnt get as bad as they thought. thank god. my poor car is in the shade. havnt been out in a while. son off school all week so far. he seft to go to nvideo store and isnt back...

well, this is my last entry for tonight. have to eat and watch movies. going to pick out my cake tommorrow. ohhhh the snow storm is going to be bad. oh well, wil go out 2moro and get enough to last...

well, im back for a while. son went out so i took my meds so i can type. have had a pretty good week. left house 4 times this week. started taking a creative wrinting class. i love it.l trying to get...