running oput of pain meds ahhhhhh wed sept 28, 2011

well i saw the home nurse today, tolds her about my anxiaty about running out of hydrocodein. she ssays the doc prob WONT  perscribe me anymoore. so im very worried. im in pain still exxpecially my butt and wene i do the exersises. owch. tried naproxin and ibuprophin. they are a joke. i dont know what im going to do. the nursed is like meditate, aversion therapy, etc. but wene im in pain its all i can think about. i got up very early and saw nurse, then i stayed up and i ended up sleeping in the lift chair for a long time. bout 6.30. then i ate dinner n took my meds. i took half of my very last oxicodone, have half left. been saving it but its just taunting me.  so will prob just take the other half tommorow. so im ok i guess, exept for that. she talked about pain management but i know medicaid will NEVER  ok that one. if theywont let me have p.t. they surely wont let me do pain management, which i would love to do. im just scared and i cant seem to think of anything else. ok, well, maybe moore later, if not then tommorow for sure.......