Leapyear22
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- So, I was thinking last night, in my recovery, I keep thinking, I'm going to "get back" to the person I was, so many moons ago, and then it hit me. I don't think so, its been so long since I was that person, that in my recovery, I believe there is...
- Day 61, last night I found myself smiling, and feeling "happy" which is odd for me, to really FEEL happy. I laugh harder, I smile more, I feel a change coming over me. This last week or so I have been happier than I have been in a very long time. ...
- Today is 60 days without placing a bet. In a very calm way, I'm thrilled. I am learning to fill my time up with healthy choices, and when I don't make healthy choices, as long as its not gambling, I won't beat myself up (like eating the damn ding...
- Do I hold onto any resentments? To be true, I do. Not sure why, but I am trying to slowly figure it out, and when I start to feel any, I am aware of it, and I ask my higher power to help me forgive and move on. Who am I to judge anyone? I go...
- I went for a motorcycle ride with my family today, and I started to cry while I was on the back of the bike. I realized for the first time in a very long, long time, I was having FUN, I was enjoying my freedom from being a compulsive gambler, I was...
- Day 56 gamble free. Last night I had dinner with my mom, who happens to be not only my mom, but really my best friend. She is only 16 years older than I am. She would know when I was out gambling, I wouldn't even have to tell her, and the many...
- 54 day gamble free! Over the last several weeks, I have made payments towards my debt, and I had one last monkey on my back, a payment to a friend of mine who is a contractor, he did some work on my house and I paid him when he was done 3500.00. ...
- PEOPLE... XOXOXO
- Another day GF, is a day to celebrate, 52 days. I have decided to incorporate exercise into my daily routine, I think it will help, mood swings and such. I have a workout machine, that I never use, sitting in my living room, hardly used. My...
- Day 51! I made it through the long weekend, and although I was alone, and there were times I had urges, I kept myself busy, and allowed myself to walk through the hard time, and now, I'm at work, at my desk, rested and hopeful. I received a called...
- Day 50 of my journey called recovery. I find myself writing a lot, keeping this journal of recovery, is my therapy. My hurdles, my struggles, my accomplishments, all of these things are my therapy, more importantly, the strangers I have met on...
- I made a list to keep myself busy this weekend, and I am almost done with it. I also told my mom and sister about my thoughts yesterday and how I was "planning" my trip to the casino yesterday but didn't go. My mom was so supportive, and my...
- 49 days GF, but to be honest, last night on my way home from the vet, I had to go up a street that would have led me directly to the casino. I had planned in my head, to come back from the vet, drop the cat off and go back to the same street and...
- I find myself at home, with my dogs, alone. My daughter is gone for a few days, and I have nobody here but me, myself and I and of course my dogs. I sat down tonight and paid bills, I actually paid extra on the bills. I figured, 46 days ago, I would...
- Oh my gosh, thank goodness its Friday, thank goodness! This week, although productive has been oddly difficult for me. My mood has gone up and down, although mostly good, there have been moments of "did I say that?" I was thinking last night, I...