Leapyear22
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- 81 days in recovery. I listened in on the GA call last night, and although I don't talk, because there are so many people on the phone who want to or need to, I listen, and I actually really like to listen.My recovery is just that, my recovery. ...
- Day 80, without placing a bet, or running to the casino, or waking up after being gone for days, emotionally and financially broken. Compulsive gambler, if anyone had told me, how hard this was going to be, I wouldn't have believed them, nobody...
- It took me a while to post today, day 79. I have been annoyed the last couple of days, not sure why, and unfortunately, when I get in a "mood" I tend to take it out on others around me. But, I am noticing I catch myself pretty quickly. This...
- I spent the last hour reading the previous posts from so many who have come to visit this site. I found myself reading one person's positing, although they didn't write a journal, I was able to track their postings but clicking through the view all...
- I am starting to really enjoy my weekends. I live in San Diego, probably one of the pretties places in the country. For years, I would spend most of my weekends in a dark casino, and when I would finally leave, I didn't notice anything around me,...
- Today I am humbled, I am grateful and I'm happy. 75 days GF. So many Fridays I would run home, clean up my house, feed the dogs, and once I felt accomplished with getting my "chores" done, I would run to one of the many casinios in San Diego. I...
- Day 73. Do I miss it? Do I miss the gambling? I can say, without a shred of hesitation, no, I don't. I did the first couple of weeks, I am not sure if I missed the gambling, or if I missed the running? Either way, I ran to the casino, so its one...
- Day 72 gamble free. Reading the posts of so many past and present. It amazes me to read how much in common we all have, the stories of the compulsive gambler the inability to stop, the lose of money, time, family. Its as though I am reading my...
- This weekend was crazy busy, filled with everything BUT gambling. I'm like a kid in a candy store right now, I'm living my life GF and each day is a new adventure. Yesterday my daughter came home from work with roses and wished me a happy Fathers...
- OUT>>> Up at 6 am. Took the trikes and went up to a pretty local lake and hiked for 2.5 miles, went to breakfast and then went to the Del Mar Fair, where I proceeded to walk some more. Guess what? My body is done. I was talking to my mom tonight...
- I took the day off, and just enjoyed my time with my dogs, and went for a walk with my mom, did a tiny bit of shopping and cleaned my house. 68 days ago, I would have been running to the casino. I haven't had any urges, but yesterday, was a super...
- day 68 without gambling! I am in a pickle, and found myself emotional last night. My mom is by best friend, I adore her, and she is so supportive. Part of my family lives in Las Vegas, and we planned a trip the end of this month, 27th, to drive...
- Day 67. Funny how when I played poker, for days on end, I would "bond" with my fellow players, in a strange way I thought they were my friends, I remember being super nice as a poker player, I would warn a player if it was heads up, that I had a...
- Day 66. So, they say that although I'm an addict, self admitted and of course, total obvious to my friends and family, I don't need to know "why" that I just need to concentrate on my recovery and not placing the first bet. Last night, I had words...
- Happy Monday! I would typically either still be at the casino this morning, from a long weekend , or emotionally and physically drained from a weekend of gambling. Now, I am waking up early, emotionally available to do the day.This weekend, I was...