54 day gamble free! Over the last several weeks, I have made payments towards my debt, and I had one last monkey on my back, a payment to a friend of mine who is a contractor, he did some work on my house and I paid him when he was done 3500.00. My last time I went and placed a bet, I did a ton of financial damage and I had to ask him not to cash the check. He was beyond sweet and told me not to worry about it.

I have been able to close a couple of escrows this month, and today I closed one and I called the contractor and I told him to put his check in the bank! He hesitated, but I told him it was very important to me that he cashed it and he agreed to do so. For me, accountability for my actions, emotionally and financially are part of my recovery, my journey. So, I'm not totally caught up with my credit cards, but I'm paying on them, my mortgage is paid, my bills are paid, my home is happy. I may not be rich, but I am taking care of the wreckage of my past, and that in itself is the best feeling, ever! The only positive thing is, some how I was able to maintain my credit, and my mortgage, with no late pays on anything, but I do know that if I continue to gamble, that would be right around the corner, something that didn't happen, "yet."

Because I am in recovery, I am able to do this, I had so much guilt over my gambling, the people it impacted, personally and financially, that its so important for me to own it. I own it, I'm humbled by it, and in a strange way, I'm grateful for it.

Have a good weekend, please be good to yourself.