Leapyear22
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- Going into the weekend, this week has been long and exhausting. Tomorrow morning, I am going to the three casinos that I go to, and ban myself for life. My daughter is going with me. Although there are plenty of places I could run to if I wanted...
- Another day in recovery, and another day that I am starting to feel as though I'm coming out of the haze I had been in. The love that I have felt and I've been given by so many of my sisters and brothers in this fellowship has actually carried me...
- Today, actually, the last few days I have been reminded, that I am human. I falter, I slip, I stumble, but with the help of my GA family, and my higher power, I am getting back up. Thank you for all of your loving support and for welcoming me...
- The fog is starting to lift, a little bit. I am not thinking of, the drive in the direction to the casino, Saturday, as I was out looking at properties, and on my way home, I veered towards the freeway that took me to the casino, without much...
- 116 days in recovery. This morning, on my way to work, I was sitting on the freeway, and found myself starting to cry. Every morning, on my way to my office, I talk with God. I know, its strange, but I do. And I found myself so overwhelmingly...
- I think its 115 days in recovery.... My days are starting to run together, I have been so busy with my work. Exhausted, but a good kind of tired. I am doing what I love to do, and today, rather than sit in a casino, I was productive with my...
- 113 days in recovery. Odd, I know, I count down the days, for me, its like looking in the mirror with my clothes off (sorry but its the only comparison I could think of :) It brings me into reality, but, there are times I have to remind myself,...
- 111 days in recovery. I had to take a pain pill last night, somehow I messed up my arm, not sure how, but I have ice on it, and I'm trying to get the swelling down. I took a pain pill, which I never do, that I had left over from my last dentist...
- 108 days in recovery.My days are starting to even out, I guess that means the "pink" cloud has lifted? Not sure, but, I do know that every day I don't gamble is a billion times better than a day that I was gambling. The urges are far less than...
- Day 107 in recovery. It was a day that started off with three nails in my back tire, a new tire later, late for a meeting, and family member issues. I realized tonight, that just because I'm not gambling anymore, the issues with "life" are still...
- Recovery for 106 days today.Monday's used to be tough for me, either I was exhausted at work, or still in the casino, looking at the clock and telling myself, I was going to leave soon.Today was a tough one for me, I'm tired, cranky and just don't...
- 105 days in recovery. Drama, that is what my world consisted of for at least 10 years prior to finally getting into recovery 105 days.There were so many times I justified what I did, it was never my fault, or I was just getting away for awhile, it...
- Doing the day, doing the day, doing the day! 104 days into my recovery, and I woke up at 10 this morning!!!! Super late sleeping in for me, but I was tuckered out.I picked up a call, my mom called me, a few times, because I didn't pick up my phone,...
- 103 days in recovery, and I woke up early, I have a ton to do today. I woke up wondering, where are the people on this site I have become so connected with, my friends that I miss and I haven't seen post in awhile? Its funny how this site and GA...
- Working, working, working. 102 days in recovery. Although I'm exhausted, I still make time, each day to work on my recovery. I made reservations today, for me and 3 other girls to go to dinner at The House of Blues here in San Diego, Saturday...