Leapyear22
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- Today is day 15 I believe, and for the last two days I've been in major pain. Finally had the surgeon take care of the tooth and infection, my face is still swollen, like crazy swollen, but tonight is the first night I've actually been able to...
- Day 14 and I have had the worst toothache, I couldn't sleep last night, and this morning woke up to a completely swollen face, I went to the dentist but they had to refer me to a surgeon, who will drain it and extract the tooth tomorrow morning, the...
- Love, love, love reading all the posts. ALL of them. I was thinking on my way to work today, when I placed a bet, I started at the tiny tables, which progressively grew into the "high stakes" tables. I would have different colored chips in front...
- Thank you for being here, although I don't "know" any of you, personally, I have found myself drawn to all of you over the last 13 days, I read all of the postings, and I even go into some older journals to read on others recovery and journeys,...
- A holiday where I'm not gone, sitting at a table and gambling? Reflection for me, of all the times, I would escape to the casino, many times, although it was a holiday, the casino would be full. I would wonder, where are their families? But, it was...
- Just me and my three dogs, on a Saturday night. In my house, clean house, chores / work done, typically I would reward myself and go play some poker on a Saturday night. 12 days into my recover, I found myself sitting here for the last hour...
- Good morning! I had a dream, strange dream last night, for whatever reason I was in a casino, I wasn't gambling, but I remember turning around and seeing my sister playing craps? She was on her knees, on a stool and throwing the dice, on this tiny...
- How many holidays, or long weekends did I spend in a card room / casino? Too many to count. Day 12 for me, today I still feel tired and sad, but a bit stronger than yesterday. Reflection of the New Year, New Years Eve to be exact, and I was in a...
- Today went by slowly for me, I tried to work, but because of what is happening with my daughter, I found myself in a deep sad place, probably one of the worst feelings of sadness I have ever felt. In the past, drama, or life would happen, and the...
- So, over the last several years of my gambling career, running career, hiding in a casino for days on end, career, I have tried to reason with "why" I would do it. Reflection for me, on this 11th day of not placing a bet. Last night I found out...
- OMG, I read the post Question 18 and thought, "were they reading my mind." I found myself getting upset tonight (daughter) and the urge was overwhelming to gamble,,, I'm not kidding. I fought the urge, calmed myself down and a light bulb came on,...
- Did someone really just post a question, asking why the on line casino wouldn't take their debit / ATM card? Really? Gave me a bit of a butterfly in my stomach when I read the post, and then it became very clear to me, the desperation of some...
- I went to work today, after a relaxing weekend, when I would go before, I would literally find my mind out of the game at work, I would almost fall asleep at my desk and I was consumed with guilt and despair. Today, was a good day, although I still...
- The last time I placed a bet, I told myself I would get home in time to shower and go to work, of course that was a lie, I didn't make it to work, I called in sick. Tonight, I reflect on where I was a week ago, and how I made dinner tonight, got...
- Interesting definition, sort of gross in a way, but honestly, that is what I am, a pathological gambler! Day 7 for me, and the last few days I have really had to fight the urge to go, just one more time. Instead, I cleaned my house, watched TV, and...