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8:53 pmWow! I must be totally screwed up. Why do I always start fights? That is probably why my ex used to beat me up, because I can't stop. I just keep going. If I want something I make sure I am...

2:20 pm No wonder why I never make New Year's resolustions. I never keep them. I have talked to my ex already today. I am just so angry with him. He has made my life miserable for the last year and...

6:22 amI have actually been awake since 4:30 this morning. I just stayed in bed until 5:50. I was trying to fall back asleep, but lately I just haven't been sleeping well at all. I am thankful that...

Just curious. I don't really get many comments on my journals. If you read them and don't leave a comment, that is fine, but I am just wondering who all of my friends reads my journals. If you do,...

7:15 pmI took a day off today. Well, kind of. I went into work for a couple hours and then left to go file paperwork and see where I could get some help. I went to the child support enforcement...

6:11 pmI actually get to write about drama now. I called my ex to ask him for some money so I can pay some bills. He said he can't give me any. I am just so frustrated that his life is peachy with no...

2:22 pm I went through all the pictures that we had accumulated throughout our marriage. Alot of them were very happy pictures with my ex's arms around me. It made me very sad that these things are...

10:30 amToday has been a horribly awful day. All I have been doing is fighting with my exabout money. He is so irresponsible. He has nothing that he has to focus on other than himself. While I am...

6:55 amI got a call about 45 minutes ago from one of my staff that he is sick and won't be a work today. I hope that he is really sick. Today is the day that I normally go grocery shopping for all...

7:00 pmToday was a very productive busy day at the daycare. My landlord finally sent a plumber by and he did fix somethings, but we are still have problems, but we were able to temporarily fix...

1:05 pmLast night I spent alot of time with family that I haven't spent much time with since I got married. My ex seemed to make me a little anti-social with my family. Shortly after we got married...

7:30 amSo here's the low down on last night. Before I was getting ready to leave to meet my ex, he called and said he really wanted to come over, so, in order to not start a fight, I agreed, even...

6:05 pmWhy is it that when the weekend comes I get weak. Guess who I am going out to dinner with. My ex and our son. He even said that he wanted to come over to my house and hang out, but I seggested...

12:45 pmMy ex has called twice today. I didn't answer the phone. I just can't put myself through that. He called 3 times last night that I didn't answer it either. He left a message that he wants to...

8:00 amThis has been a really busy week for me, but it has been one of the best weeks for me emotionally in a long time. I have not felt as much dispair about my ex. I finally got someone hired. This...