2:22 pm I went through all the pictures that we had accumulated throughout our marriage. Alot of them were very happy pictures with my ex's arms around me. It made me very sad that these things are never going to happen in my life again. In the hopes that maybe it would trigger some emotion in my ex and make him think about all the good times and when he really did love me, I sent him copies of alot of the pictures. They were pictures of our honeymoon (the one that I just pust up of us with a tiger in the back ground), our first Christmas together (It was really funny, we both enjoyed the fragrance "Obsession" so we both bought each other some for christmas, not knowing that the other did too), our first anniversary together in front of the fire place (It really was very romantic), a couple pictures of him and our son, and then a few more of us together (just random pictures that people took). Boy is my heart breaking right now. Why did he have to do this to me? Things were getting better. He said that he needed to experience more of life, but in the mean time he has made some really bad decisions that have hurt me so badly and probably have hurt the chance of us ever being together again. But he doesn't even care because he said we are never getting back together.I believe that God can do miracles and heal broken marriages, but do I really want to pray for that and get my hopes up to just get let down again? Do I want to put myself through all the pain and agony again? The thing is I still really love him and I do believe that God is powerful and that if I pray without ceasing, he will answer my prayers.In the short amount of time that I have spent typing out this entry a billion things have been racing through my mind and I have come to the conclusion that I am not done with my ex yet. Even though we are divorced, I am not giving up on him. I am going to continue praying that he will come back home. I ask that you will all pray with me this same request. I will either come out of this back together with my ex, or stronger knowing that there is something else in God's plans. But for sure I will be closer to God. All I know is I am not done yet!