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I am having the urge to do something that I shouldn't do and I am starting to have anxiety about it and freak out. I start to speculate about my husband having relationships with other women, and...

I have been so busy today that I haven't really had much of a chance to thinkm about stuff. I guess I can consider it a blessing. My sister is helping me do weight watchers and today was my first...

The sermon at church yesterday was excellent. I was fed. I am going to put a little bit of stuff in this journal for those of you who might want to read it. It will benefit you greatly. The sermon...

Today is ok, I guess. I talked to my husband and he said that he just forgot to call me because his dad just had surgery and he was not doing to well. I kind of figured that he just forgot, but it...

I am feeling alittle better. I have had a laugh with some of my staff here at the daycare. And that always seems to help a little. Sometimes I wonder if I am bi polar, with how my moods change so...

Not doing any better today. I just want to sleep, I am not sleeping well at night. Anytime I turn ove, I wake up and then I think about things. I dream about my husband being with another women. I...

So things really suck right now. My husband just hates me so much and nothing I do will prove anything to him. I am never going to be good enough for him. No matter how hard I work. I haven't been...

So I just did something really stupid that just makes me upset. I have a way of getting information about my husband. I found out a few weeks ago about this girl that he has been talking to. He says...

Today has been a really good day! I am feeling very positive my skies are blue (with just a little bit of clouds). I don't know what the future holds for me and my husband, but at least I know I have...

This weekend was really busy for me. I moved more stuff into my new house. I did go out with my family. They always invite me to parties and such, but I never go. When I was with my husband, he never...

I know I already made an entry today, but I just had an epiphany. Divorce=Death. It reality it is the death of the marriage. God has raised many people from the dead, why could he not raise a...

I moved last night out of the house that my husband and I bought together into a house that I bought on my own. I am feeling really good that I have taken that step to move out of the rut and into to...

I just joined today and I am hoping that this will help me in this time of trial. I don't like the person I have become since my husband left. One person told me that the way that I have been acting...