6:11 pmI actually get to write about drama now. I called my ex to ask him for some money so I can pay some bills. He said he can't give me any. I am just so frustrated that his life is peachy with no worries and he does what ever he wants. So, I told him that I am going to need some help to show him that he needs to stop being so selfish RIGHT NOW and start being responsible. I told him that I am going to be filing for help from Child Support Enforcement services. He started getting mad then, I told him that I am to the point where I don't really care what he thinks about me. It's like what I do is going to help us get back together. Then he asked me if I would just talk to him and come up with a solution. I said you never talked to me to work out a solution, so now you know how it feels. I am doing what I want now and for the first time since you left I am going to get what I want.Anyway, I told him that I was getting ready to leave and as I was walking out the door he walked in the front door of the daycare. I told him that I didn't think it was a good idea that he came there. I needed to go to the bank to put some money I borrowed from someone in my account so I could pay some bills. He then followed me out to the car. He would not let me leave. He was so upset that I was going to take legal action. How does he think I feel when he left and filed for divorce and there was nothing I could do about that? I need to do this. First, it is the right thing to do. Second, since the best for me and my son (to be a family with my ex) is not going to happen, I have to do everything in my power to to what is best for us. Anyway, he wouldn't let me leave and then he is there yelling at me in front of my business when parents are coming to pick up there children. I told him that I needed to go again. He said, let me go with you. I said no. he kept asking why, and then I started crying and said I just don't want him to go with me. I think I started crying because in the back of my mind I was thinking, yes come with me, come home with me and never leave again. But I had to say no, because he only wanted to come with me to make sure that I don't go file the papers for child support. I just don't want to do things that could ruin things, because I still love him so much and want to be with him. But since I can't even see that in the distance, I have to do what is best for my son.he just called me, bye the way. didn't answer it. Gosh, I miss him so much. Anyway, gotta go. Gonna watch the Rockies win the first game.  Go Rockies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!