12:45 pmMy ex has called twice today. I didn't answer the phone. I just can't put myself through that. He called 3 times last night that I didn't answer it either. He left a message that he wants to talk to our son. Why would he call in the middle of the day when he knows that our son is at school. I always hope that it is "The" phone call. The one where he is going to tell me that he made a big mistake and that he wants to make things work with me. I know that is not why he is calling so I don't answer it, because it will just disappointment me. I think it is strange that he does call me at work in the middle of the day when he knows our son is not here. I think in some small sort of way he does want to talk to me too. I know that he still loves me, he has told me that. I still pray daily that he will come back, the difference is that I am also praying that God's will be done in my life. I can't do anything without his strange and power. I am putting a song in here that you may hear it. The words ring true to heart.http://youtube.com/watch?v=J2SV_NltG3gLet me know what you all think of the song. It is not a video and all the videos were horrible, so I picked this one so you could really hear the words to the song.