kayrl

so, i survived another day. i know i should prolly slow down and take a breather but i just can't. if i do i will thinkg more about my pathetic life and how much i just shouldn't be here. i'm still ...

so i have pretty much been making myself sick. i'm really depressed and i haven't been sleeping and my stomach has been hurting but i've been eating but not very much i guess and i just feel really...

today is my birthday....sweet. hmm i got an ihome for my ipod it's like a radio thing that you put your ipod on and it play's the song's on there and stuff so ya and then i got a gotcart from mason.

ok so one last thing...srry. well my brother luke left today, actually just a few minutes ago. i miss him already. i wanted him to be here for my birthday and i wish he would of stayed one more day....

umm ok so you guy's might notice that i deleted all the pics of me on here. idk i just couldn't stand looking at myself anymore. i didn't want them to be on here. i dont' want to be me anymore. i...

so my friend is taking me to my meeting with my counselor on wednesday. i'm glad about that so that way my mom wont have to take me. but she's taking me because she wanted to take me out for my...

well idk. just feel like blah depressed.  my birthday is on tuesday. wooohooo...eh. i see my counselor on wednesday. i haven't talked to her in a month. my mom or something has to take me and i'm...

well i know i havent written in a while but i just didn't know what to say. i had no word's. umm well mason had to take me out to work on sunday because my mom and dad had hangover's from that night....

first day of school went ok...lol it's school what more can you say. umm had cross country pratice and i abouse died. it was really muggy and humid and we had a timed run and so it really sucked. i...

well school start's tomorrow :( i'm sad that were starting because i don't really like homework all that much and i just hate that i don't have a life once school start's and having a job is really...

well today i'm just kind of going through the motion's. idk why. i fell kind of numb and not real. wish i wasn't real but i am so i have to deal with it. hmmmmmm...........

hey guy's, well i got back from my aunt's house yesterday so i've just been putting thing's away and what not. umm i got alot of clothes for school and alot of shoe's lol. i had alot of fun.

hey guy's well i'm going to go and vist my aunt with my mom. lol idk where she live's but it's pretty far lol but ya so i dont' think i'm gonna be on for a few day's. i hope you guy's all have a good...

oh today at work was not fun not fun at all!! ok so i came in and i started training for waitressing yesterday and so then today would have been my second day of training well.....they think i should...

well i got to sleep in an extra 25 minutes!! but i still did not want to get up to go and run! but i woke up and it was raining and lightining out but oh don't worrie we still ran!! lol we run in all...