kayrl

well i just got off work. we were really busy so that kind of sucked! i did't get out of there till a lil after 11 i was so mad. my back hurt so mad and i just wanted to leave but i let this kid that...

i can't get work off to go to my grandma's party ! i'm so pissed. i called one kid but he worked already today and he didn't want to do a double so i just asked if he woudl just mind going in for a...

today is my grandma's brithday!!!  i'm so excited i get to see her! well i'm trying to get off work but i'm  not sure if i'd be able too . i really miss her i never get to see her cuz she lives far...

a kid from my school died today . i didn't know him, he was 2-3 year younger than me so i never got to know him. will you guy's pray for his family. he would have been in 8th grade this coming school...

to help clear things up with my last journal entry i have two brothers. Mason as you all know is the one who abused me, i have nother brother luke who was not really apart of the abuse. luke is a...

well today is going better, i think i'm finally starting to get out of my depression mood here so that is good. i'm still not eating idk just cant bring myself to do it right now.my brother is moving...

so i still feel like shit. i ate some nasty stuff today at work. have any of you heard of blue cheese? well i hate that stuff and if any of you like it then i give you some mayjor props. i had to eat...

so i did cut over and over but only like 7 time's and then i stoped cuz it was like in the same spot and it really started to hurt and i didn't want to cut anywhere else so that's all i did. *sigh*...

omg i just cut it felt so good. i just want to go and sit in my room and cut all night. omg that sound's so nice right now i can't explain the feeling. i have all these emotions in me and cutting...

i feel like a horrible friend right now. my friend called me and told me to come down to the bon fire that was down at a class mates of her's and i know the girl but idk i woudl just feel weird cuz...

wow we can post video jounrals, that's pretty cool. ok anyway's.... so i'm hungry but idk why i just don't want to eat. i ate subway but i didn't want to my friend made me. i want to cut. i havent in...

so i just got back from drill team and meeting with my counselor. the counselor- she was nice, i didn't feel like she was judging me so that's good. she asked some hard questions but i got through...

PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TOO RIGHT NOW PLEASE!!!!!!

 i'm really upselt that i didn't get in. i was looking forward from getting away from here and getting help. i'm just sitting here crying. idk what to do now. i think counseling will be fine. i'll...

so back to my journal before, umm i will meet with her once a week for this month and then she said we'll see how the scheduling go from there. so that's good i'll go once a week i'm happy about...