well idk. just feel like blah depressed. my birthday is on tuesday. wooohooo...eh. i see my counselor on wednesday. i haven't talked to her in a month. my mom or something has to take me and i'm betting it will be my mom and that's gonna suck cuz my counselor might bring my mom in cuz she talked about it before but i really really don't want my mom to come in i just want her to sit in the car and wait. ahh i'm sooo f-in stressed out and pissed that i just want to cry right now. god i hate everything! my mom just doesn't understand the feeling's i'm going through when i'm around him and what this is all doing to me. i feel like i'm loosing my mind and no one cares. she doesn't care. i don't know what to do! why doesn't she care, why can't she see that i'm hurting, why does she treat mason better than me???????????? i just wish god could tell me, could help me understand cuz right now i don't and i'm trying to but i can't!yesterday my mom had me ride home with mason. i was in the car with him for like 2 hour's it wasnt as bad at that one time but it sucked ass. And we went by the house that the abuse started in and my heart stoped, not even kidding it was really scary.
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Ihavent read your whole story yet hun but I want u to know u CAN tell your counciller NOT to bring her in and she cant say shit about it! Feel better!
Who is mason and what did he do?
If you don\'t want your mother to go in, tell your counselor and she will not let her in. The choice is yours. As for Mason, I know exactly how you feel. I went through the same thing too. My mom would not believe me. She said I was just trying to cause trouble. Things were never the same between us after that. We are close now (40 years later) but it still hurts that she let me be hurt the way I was. Things will get better over time. Just don\'t give up hope. I hope you feel better soon.
Sometimes the things that are hardest to do are the things that we need to do most. If you let your mother in to see the councelor with you, maybe she\'ll begin to understand how difficult it is for you having Mason around. She needs to here your hurt and fear so that she can begin to understand and be more considerate of your feelings. Consider at least giving it a try or two with her there. It may be the opportunity that provides some help (even though it\'s difficult).
Hey sweetie!! I just want you to know that I feel like I am reading about myself (when I was your age) when I read your profile. I have all the same intrests as you and almost the same abuse experiences and I was also a cutter when I was 13 to 16. Please let me know if I can help you in any way! God Bless You!!