kayrl

i never found anything to drink. my brother was home so i didn't get to find anything. i just went up to my room and i went to bed. grrrr. oh well i guess next time.

ugh, so last night i cut. grrr.  i hadn't cut since august. i cut on my hip (the usual spot) and then on my wrist. god i just wanted to die. the ones on my wrist arnt bad. so we get out early from...

I just don’t’ know. I just feel like getting drunk and not caring what happens to me. I don’t care about myself any more I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m worthless...

Well today was ok I guess. Had my last meet for cross country! That’s exciting but kind of sad I guess lol. I did pretty good. Got 10th so that’s good. Beat out one girl on my team that I never...

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Umm so I stayed home today from school. Didn’t really want to go to school so I told my mom I was kind of sick…that I had cramps…which was kind of true but I could have gone to school but I...

well things are going pretty good now...cross country has been good....had a meet a few day's ago and ran pretty good my time was18:07 so that's not too bad. mason got a dog and he's really cute, a...

I’m so upset idk. Yesterday we went to this near by college and there were a bunch of other colleges there and it was just really stressful and I didn’t enjoy it. None of the college’s there...

So everything is going good right now. School is going fine….my chemistry teacher is f-ing stupid!!!! We talk about dumb stuff, we talked about something that I don’t even want to write about....

hmm i guess i'm doing better idk....it's hard to explain....it's the night's that are killing me....i hate being alone at night.

my stomach hurts.....god i should just stop eating. everytime i eat my stomach hurt's and i feel like i coul d throw up but i odn't want to cuz i don't want to get back into doing that...

i think mason is finally buying a house of his own.....he was telling my mom about this one house he wants and she doesn't want him to get it cuz it's to big i guess but she shouldn't have any say in...

i am still here and still i feel like shit and idk what to do. i feel all alone and i know i'm not i know i have you guy's but i wish i had people here, where i live. mason say's thing's to me that i...

please everyone just leave me alone. i just want to be alone. left alone. i just idk.......i nee dhelp.

i have never felt so depressed for so long. i hate this. i hate pretending i'm ok and that everything is ok. these last few day's have been so much fun and i wish i could enjoy them in stead of...