kayrl

ok so i wrote this like lil poem thing and my mom saw it and absolutly freaked out! this is what it said.the day has come, it's time to go and say good by to this awful world. the day's are ok but i...

meet with my counselor. that was ok we didnt' really talk about much. she had me tell her thing's i liked about myself and thing's i didn't like. and then we just talked a lil about out last meeting...

i feel great! never better. the sun is out, i have to work. i'm not feeling depressed. i don't want to die today. what could be better?!?  maybe if that was all true. i do have to work and the sun...

well i wasn't suppose to work tonight but now i am.a girl i work with needed someone cuz she has solfball games and has to babysit now and so i said i could. she offered to work for me when i needed...

hey guy's just got back from meeting with my counselor, well and eating lunch with my mom.the counseling went good. umm we didn't talk about mason coming home or being suicidal we just talked about...

today has turned out to be a good. talked with a friend and that was good got some things out some feeling's and so that was good. umm i meet with my counselor tomorrow. nervouse but it should be...

today is going ok.just got back from meeting with the DOT that was kind of scary but it went fine. i meet with my counselor tomorrow woohooo lol. well don't really have anything else to write about.

i don't know what to do i can't handling knowing he's coming back. if i'm already like this what will happen when he is here? i'm not one to voice my  oppinion and let people know what i'm think and...

well ok, so i was talking with a friend and she asked me if my mom had ever been abused her self because that could explain some of the reasons why she hasn't been very helpful and at first i was...

not much to say. today is going ok

oh one more thing, yesterday i went to the river and i TOTALLY forgot i had to work! :S i didn't mean to i didn't know it was sunday and that i had to work. duh i'm so dumb but i'm glad i didn't go...

ok so that guy that i was telling you all about well he keeps texting me but i am not texting back but she keeps saying hey sexy and what r u doing sexy. and then he asked how old i was. i have not...

i went to the river today that was very fun! it was my mom and her friend and her son and daughter and her daughter brough along a friend. it was so nice on the water and we has so much fun. i got...

my stomach hurts, i hate that i ate. i hate me.

Why do i feel alone?Why is no one home?No one to protect meNo one to hold meNo one to tell me they love me,so i sit here in agonywaiting patientlywith only the memory of how it felt to be held,...