kayrl

ran today again! 6mile's lol but dont' worrie i did not run it all lol. a couple of us walked alot of it lol. we were really sore and like couldn't move and then we decided to play in the mud and...

well today was the first day of cross country pratice lol well that went ok. we ran 6mile's and that was ok, i ran it all even tho i hadn't ran all summer lol i pulled it off! i was proud of myself....

well so i guess this g/f thing that mason has he meet her online and she's 17! that just make's me want to throw up!!!! i'm almost 17!

sooo i didn't sleep at all last night! but i sleept some durning the day so ya. umm i have to wake up at 6 tomorrow because cross country pratice start's and my coach want's us to be running my 7 so...

soooo i can't sleep at all!! im actually freaking out....im kind of shaking and idk what to doo. idk where mason is....ok now i know where he is.. him and some girl just came down stairs....uh idk...

well mason is back home :( i don't want him here. it was nice when he wasn't here, i was able to relax and be ok. but now he's here. i'm scared right now because he's in the other room. i'm not sure...

a poem.Want.I want to run awayfor someone to take away the pain.I want to cry away the frightfor someone to hold me with all their might.I want to be lovedfor someone to hug.By:kayrl 

ahh i don't know what 's going on. i hate my body, i hate how my emotion's are everywhere.i want to die i want out. but i can't do it right now i dont' know if i ever can. too many comitment's that i...

so i'm sitting here thinking of how much i really want to be dead how much i can't take this that i hurt so bad that i just want to be dead. but then i'm also thinking of how much i have to live for....

well i'm going to go and see my aunt on the 18th through the 20th with my mom and i'm bringing a friend.i guess it will be nice to get away and stuff and i havent seen her in forever but ya. i have...

well school start's the 22nd :( idk how i feel, like i'm happy to be going back to school cuz then i have a schedule and stuff and i kind of like school but i just don't really want to deal with the...

so guy's i'm not sure where mason went but he hasn't been home for these last couple of day's. i think he went with luke or something but idk when he's comeing back but for right now i'm making the...

well right now i'm doing pretty good i guess. no one is home and i love when i'm home alone. i'm just sitting here listening to music and being on the computer! it's great. i dont' want anyone to...

well today a couple of friend's and i took my other friend out for supper. that was good. i had to use my mom's car and she was pissed kind of and made me put gass in it and i was mad about that but...

well guy's i finally got the courage to ask my friend if i could stay there. i sent her an e-mail and she got back to me within  a few hour's. but i'm not staying there. She's a teacher at my school...