Sat night I have a basement full of kids kaitlyn has some friends over for her 15th! not much in the mood but ! especially since some where Ashleys teammates it just seems weird not have Ashley here,anyway Theresa played her bball game and won her championship game !but she said she wasnt happy something was missing ,I feel so bad for her she misses her sister so much Ashley didnt miss too many of her games she was always right by my side cheering her on, i hate this Im so mad that god didnt let her live for putting my family thru this hell I just hate this !this whole thing stinks and I dont ever see any relief coming I cant see how I can ever get over something like this ! never in a million yrs did I think my life would turn out like this!