Here it is another night , I contacted the photography co. that took the pictures of last yrs TOB Atlantic coast championships, they are going to give me all of Ashley's pictures for free! of course I started to cry ,that was really nice of them..I had another meeting with my counselor today I dont know if it is helping or not,I miss her so bad,I wish she was still here she would be in indoor guard right now and I would be going evey wekend to see her and her sister, now I cant go to see her team I just break down and cry, I tolk Kaitlyn that I will go see her but I cant go and stay its too painfull right now.we talked to a lawyer today still waiting on the state police reenactment, How I wish she never got her license, I always thought it was important to let her learn to drive and she went everywhere I let her drive us to wildwood and to Lancaster she had more experience than most adults and to have this happen I just still cant believe it.I cant wait till the snow is gone I'm tired of the cold and not being able to have hr grave nice,I have been putting flowers there but the cold just kills them, but we planted a small willow tree there and I decorate it,Im trying to get her head stone done so I want to get it ordered soon so by spring it will be ready, I hate doing this Im getting a head stone for my 17 yr old daughter how cruel is that!