Very cold out again I am sick of this! I want the warm weather,I feel very down today trying not to statrt crying, so I am just yring to move along,Theresa has another bball game tonight she was so excited after winning the 1st game in the tournament,I hope they win tonight!She really needs it!well I took Kate's stuff out of her room that she basically refused to clean she didnt say a word when she got home about it! so neither did I ,Ashley has been on my mind so much lately its been hard realizing she is never coming home,I miss her so much, I just want to see her car pull in the driveway,get a call from her,I want to get her head sone done but have had such a hard time ,I start to think and go over designs and end up crying and just putting it down,I still cant believe that this happened how? I sometimes feel like im in a haze and am waiting for the fog to clear but it doesnt.I never imagined so much pain,I found her cards when she was confirmed I read the inside of the one we gave her and I had written You truly are gods angel!who would have ever imagined! It ripped me apart,why did she have to leave!I will never know the answers to my questions..
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understand about the weather and the fog, but you will make it through the fog, it will clear.....You are greiving and it will take time, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will make it.....Pam.........P.S...tell Theresa good luck with the game.......
We are all trying our best to get out of the fog. On my phone, I have different ringtones for people. I keep hoping to hear Jake\'s but it never comes. So much to except and come to terms with. Hopefully, if we hold each others hands we will come through the other side of grief, better and stronger and celebrating our children. Keep your head up, it will get easier in time.