Another night, I long to see Ashley so much My heart is just breaking, I miss and love her so much..I wish I could take a break from all this pain but its nowhere in sight, I want to get her stone done Im trying but sometimes I just get so upset when Im doing itI guess it makes everything so final, thats it she will never be back I have such a hard time with that! I hate it..I keep remembering her in that hospital bed and how she just lost all color and that was it she was gone! 10 days earlier she was an aspiring young lady who had so much to give and now was gone forever!
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I do understand. We are having a memorial benefit dinner, ect to raise money for Branden\'s stone. His mother and I discussed the same thing about it making it seem final.
The other day she said she would like to dig him up and bring him home and wondered why we can\'t bury our loved ones at home?
She sleeps on a pillow of tears every night.
Feeling your pain! Phyllis
It is hard to deal with the stone, been there and had to do it. We said it was the last thing that we could do for her and thats why we made sure it was something she would love, but it is alot more comforting to go to the grave and have something to look at instead of nothing....