I almost made it thru w/out crying but not quite, I lost tonight, Its so hard Its such a lousy feeling,my heart aches everyday I miss her so much, I got another letter from a college it hurts so bad she shouold going this fall! its just not fair!it seems like such a waste that she worked so hard all these years wanting to go to college and she has to die,I found her journal she really was a sweet kid, she had planned out her entire life how she would go to college and get married she even detailed what her wedding was going to be all the details, she even wrote how she loved to go to the store w/mom it was mom and me time I never even thooght about it she wrote that mom would let me but different ingrediants and try new things she loved to cook and bake I didnt mind she cooked dinner whenever she was home and not at practice she was just an amazing girl, my heart has been ripped right out.
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You will make it through this...I know you may be tired of hearing that, but it is true..but there is no time limit, you have to greive, you have to cry, and you have to be mad at times. I have gone through every emotion that there is since Michelle died and I still have those emotions 8 months later. Your daughter Ashley sounds like a amazing, beautiful young lady. She is going to help you through this also, through your mind, heart, and soul. I am here anytime, we have so many things in common with our daughters, mine was in the dance and drill team also with school, and she also loved animals and both of our daughters were taken away to early from us, but we can help each other. Remember I am here to talk, cry, vent or anything else you need.....Pam