I only have a moment, it's so late... I just wanted to let all of my friends know that I may be having the baby anytime now so if i'm not on or not answering messages or hugs, i am problably in the hospital. I am doing well, overall. The panick attacks are still hanging around, mostly in the late night, still keeping me awake for hours, but, I have medication to take in an emergency if one of those nights happen to crawl up. Gosh, has anyone had a panick attack that woke them up out of dead sleep? That's what mine do! And they're horrible, it's like a rollercoaster, I'm shaky, heart pounding and my vision is all blury and I'm sick to my stomach. i usually won't even know why they happen, I'm asleep! Then, I'm litterally awake for hours, until the sun is up and the kids are moving. Then, at some point, when I close my eyes, i can finally sleep for a while.
I'm wondering if this isn't some physical malfuntion instead of emtional... anyway, I'm not a complainer about health stuff, but this is scary and totally weird. The medication does help so that gives me a bit of assurance that these are panick attacks... if anyone has any feed back, please feel free. Besides that, baby will be here soon and I'm excited!