pam96

  Well...things have been going fairly well for the last little while up until a few days ago. My soon to be ex husband is from South Africa & relocated to Canada in 1998 to be with me. Our daughter...

 It has been a wonderful day! Even though I'm PMS'ing (still!) & had a few down moments, I quickly pushed negativity to the back burner & enjoyed the day.:) This morning, my youngest & I attanded...

  I dont journal much these days. I guess I'm preferring to not think about everything much & this makes me think. I've been doing ok lately although just the past 2 days, I've been thinking about...

Doing excellent on this one now! :)

  Well....I've been away for a bit. I was having a really hard time just "being". Nothing was feeling good or right & I just had to hibernate, so to speak.  I have been off work for the whole month...

   I am feeling extremely stressed out right now!And with it comes the anger back at him! I was put off on stress leave this past Friday. I thought this would be a good thing but it's turning into...

   Since the day I found her stuff, I have been completely overwhelmed with such intense emotions!! I cant even explain them but I now know how people can be so enraged as to hurt someone...

 I haven't been on here very much recently. I am really struggling with everything. I have been seeing the pastor of the church around the corner from me. He is trying to help me deal with my...

 I haven't written for awhile. I haven't been doing that great. Today, however, has been the worst! I went this morning to pick up Olivia at his place to go to church. I asked to use the washroom &...

 I started taking celexa Thursday night. I dont know if it's a side effect but I'm up really early these days. Yesterday at 7 am & this morning 6 am...That's a little frustrating! I'm nervous this...

 Feeling numb still...it's kind of wierd but then I'll get a wave of sadness wash over me & I just push it away...I wrote a post yesterday about how I feel overwhelmed lately. Today I went to a...

 I Read him the letter last night....it went well. He listened to me & added some comments about it not being all my fault. I sobbed through the whole thing. I am so saddened to realize that I...

 Feeling so-so tonight....I have been thinking about him all day for some reason....I went & got a new tattoo today. A dragonfly...they symbolize going past self-created illusions that limit our...

Happy Valentine's Day! I am feeling a bit sad today because of what day it is but at the same time, I feel enlightened & hopeful about me as a person for the first time in a very long while. Writing...

Wel...tonight has been one huge eye-opening experience for me....this is going to be a long on! All these months, all these years, I finally realized tonight what a very selfish person I have...