I am feeling extremely stressed out right now!And with it comes the anger back at him! I was put off on stress leave this past Friday. I thought this would be a good thing but it's turning into a nightmare! It cost me $20 just to get a note from him to be put off....then I have insurance forms that need to be filled out by him. So I made an appointment & went today at 3pm....the receptionist had told me when I made the appointment that it would be another $50 to get these forms filled in. I get there & the doctor then informs me that they are actually $150 to get them filled in. So I had to leave because I didn't have $150 .....I was even more stressed out & angry when I left. Now I can only get another appointment next Tuesday to get them filled in & I have to figure out where I'm going to come up with another $100 to pay for it....I'm off work! I have no income....whatever happened to a doctor only being paid by medicare? This is Canada!! So upon returning home, my daughter calls her father (she was with me at the appointment) & tells her father that I was upset at the doctor's because of needing money. I didn't know she was telling him this until she comes to me with the phone & says he wants to talk to me. He says, "I still have you on my coverage"....I felt really pissed off at him because NONE of this would be happening if he hadn't left!!!!! I told him that I appreciated his "nobility" but it doesn't help & handed the phone back to her....I hate him so frigging much!!!!!!!!! I feel like tearing him limb to limb right now! I know it's not his fault but it's all a chain of events which ultimately leads back to him!!!!!
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I am sorry for what you are dealing with and going through. It is so hard to expect to move forward when all you can think about is what was done. At times I find myself an emotional wreck still thinking about it. i ask myself why do I think about it. Its all because it hurts and I still can\'t believe she was capable of causing so much pain. Pam you need to find it in yourself to keep moving forward. I know what you are feeling for I have been there and am still there. It takes everything in you to keep going on. You will get through this.
You need to move forward I was in a similar situation a couple of months ago your right but don\'t let your anger turn to hate this is what will cause you to be stress chicken and egg you see easy to say but I have been there and understand your frustration and anger hope you can work it out you might not like this but going to work helps keep your mind off things well it worked for me anyhow!
i\'m sorry you are so stressed out right now. i know you are very angry with him. it may be worth taking advantage of the coverage, you need to be taken care of sweetie.....try to invite forgiveness into your moments of anger..that\'s what my counselor advised me to do today....i think it may help....you are in my thoughts and prayers, and thanks for sharing your heart today...hugs dear one!
I am so very sorry. You dont deserve this stress. Turn to friends or family if you can. It is ok to ask for help!! I am having trouble moving on and I know how it is. Let me know if I can help!!
Thank you all for your support. This is so hard....there is already hate there & I pray 50 times a day to find forgiveness not for his benefit but for mine. I desperately want to feel peace about all this but I\'m just not there yet. Stress leave is part of the pathway to be able to go back to school.....I cant handle the pressures & emotional demand of my job right now & it\'s not fair for my clients to only have someone there in body not mind. I just didn\'t realize that stress leave would lead to even more stress! I am feeling better today & I\'m trying to keep a positive attitude.
Hope you are all well...I\'m thinking of each one of you...:)