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I'm so tired of hurting... I'm so tired of people betraying my trust... I'm so tired of being lonely... I'm so frigging tired of thinking....

 Just when I think I can hurt no more... something else happens. Olivia got home from her weekend awhile ago... It still always messes me up inside when I see him. We were cuddling on the couch,...

Brendan,Here we are... the 15th of February, the day after Valentine's Day. This weekend has been so hard for me, knowing that you have had her to show love to & receive back from. It isn't fair that...

I am really, really beginning to despise being a woman... I can pretty much set my monthly clock by when I start to think about things & feel down... For all the men that complain about our PMS......

 I haven't updated my goals for so long. Maybe because I seem to be going backwards. Time for that to change. By posting them on here & keeping up with them, maybe I will hold myself more...

 So, Olivia's new camera that he got her for Christmas was sitting around last night & me being me, couldn't help but take a look at the photos on it. He has been with HER for over a year now & even...

Just an update.. Why do we need to write in here for this??I'm also drinking 8+ glasses of water a day now..

Just updating.. :)

I spent the night with my oldest daughter last night. We had a great time. She lives an hour away which isn't far but in the winter it certainly can be. We went to see a movie with her boyfriend & I...

Down 4 lbs!!!

I have spent a great deal of time back on DS in the past month or so & I realize just how beneficial this site has been to me. I have so many great, caring friends on here & truly feel blessed to...

Feeling a bit better today. Went for bloodwork this morning which was not fun at all but at least I know I will have some answers one way or the other. They're not tested for SAD though as...

 It's been so long since I've journalled. Things had been going quite well for so long. Then winter came. Wow! It has knocked me on my ass this year. I've never experienced depression like this...

Feeling really shitty the past couple of days. The phone call the other night has set me back considerably. Hearing him speak to me in a half reasonable tone.. I miss him... after all this time & all...