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- I've had several opportunities over the last couple of weeks. Initially, I was very anxious. I'm finding that I have peace when I stand up for myself. And that I'm able to be my own support system. I'm really kind of proud of the person I've become....
- I am now much more sensitive. Feelings hurt more easily. Anxious more often because of relationships. I don't like this part of me but accept it and will love it and pray that it gets better. I try to not call myself a cry baby but honestly, that's...
- I broke up with my guy on Saturday. I wanted time alone, not dating, just being me. Yesterday, a new surge of grief came over me. It's the sinking feeling in my stomach, the not caring, the desire to be alone and no tears left.I'm pretty sure I made...
- I don't get it. I mean I don't understand myself. I was with my late husband for 24 years. I met him at 16. He's been gone about 18 months. At first, I wanted a new relationship. I wanted to remarry. I wanted that BADLY. Now, I don't want to get...
- At first, it was hard to breathe. Then I noticed that when I moved, it felt like I was in quicksand. Decisions had to be made but I couldn't focus. A constant onslaught of thoughts impaired my ability to focus. Confidence waned. My light flickered...
- My life is transforming. I'm learning to be me. Not somebody else. I'm walking, enjoying this life. No need to rush. Stop, smell the flowers. Enjoy. My thoughts are no longer consumed by loss and what's gone. I'm surprised by my limitations caused...
- What helped you the most? What had the greatest impact on you? I'm discovering that I give more generously now. I'd like to have an arsenal of ways to help others who lose a spouse. It's the hardest thing I've ever done. What helped me most was...
- I lost my husband over a year ago. His mother and brother and sister made it very difficult for me. He wanted privacy and limited visitors to myself, our kids and his mom. This created a problem for the siblings and his mother. She was very cruel to...
- I've been dating the same guy for 6 months. What I'm finding is that I really like living on my own. I like my space, having the whole bed, not having to pick up after another person, decorating however I like. At times, I think "end this before it...
- It is August 1st in North texas and at 10 am it is 70 degrees. This is completely un characteristic for North Texas. It's wonderful. My windows are open. I'm cleaning. Tomorrow, I'm hosting a baby shower at my house for my grand baby! Each day...
- It's been 16 months. At one point, I thought loneliness would kill me. It didn't. Just made me miserable. I've floundered. I've dated. I've grasped at life and happiness. Here is what I found. I've had two relationships. Neither satisfied me for the...
- I've discovered that there are issues distinct to dating a widow/ widower. I always knew I wasn't perfect but I lied to myself because my marriage was so strong and believed that I am easy to have a relationship with. I've been seeing someone for...
- So, I've been seeing this guy for almost 6 months now. When I started dating him, it was for fun. We had similar interests and I wanted someone to go do things with. I didn't want to get serious. I had gotten serious almost fresh out of the gate and...
- This has been the hardest thing I've ever done. I was 40 when my husband passed away. My daughter had turned 14 one week earlier. My sons were 20 and 21. We were a family heavily involved in our church. My kids left the church. My daughter HATED...
- I've been seeing this guy for 5 months. He tells me that he loves me and that he's lucky to be with me. He always acts so excited to be with me. We go out about once a week. Lately, he brings up his ex girlfriend. They broke up in October of last...