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- Today is the first day of fall. I went for a walk around the block, listening to music. I stopped and talked to a couple of neighbors. It was wonderful weather and wonderful conversation. I was on cloud 9. Just happy with life. So simple... A...
- It's who "we" are. It's all so new. It's all so crazy. There's no past of getting through difficulties or problems. "We" are 8 months old. I'm amazed at how I love him. I'm scared by how much I love him. When I spend time with him, I'm in the right...
- 2 1/2 years later. Evenings are still hard. I'm anxious and edgy. I avoid going to bed. I just don't know what to call it or how to change it. I don't have peace at night. I sleep well once I'm in bed. But I have to force myself to bed. I've tried...
- I'm engaged. I'm completely in love with this man. We decided we wouldn't live together until we are married. He has a 17 year old daughter and I have a 16 year old daughter. I've been a widow for the last 2 1/2 years. I was alone much longer as he...
- I realized this morning what this entails... Having purpose, having fire, gusto and courage. About a year after my husband passed, I reflected and realized that I had been surviving and grieving. I had given myself permission to grieve (whatever...
- Yes. Last Tuesday night, we spent a little time together. We hadn't had time together in 3 or 4 weeks, that wasn't rushed. We ate dinner and were sitting and talking. He stood up and sai "there is never a perfect time or place. I wanted a perfect...
- Is the heart only capable of loving again only when we give ourselves permission? The recent ruling by the Supreme Court sure spurred some conversation about love. Last October, my 21 and 22 year old sons became fathers. I wasn't pleased. Their dads...
- Recently, somebody referred to me as "Mike Quinlan's wife". I haven't been his wife for over 2 years. I'm not his widow. I am myself. Still, people see me as belonging to him; even though he is gone and the rings are off. I haven't addressed this...
- As you know, travel with a teen can be difficult! Make it a teen girl and one may run the other direction! Just got back from a week in NYC with my 16 yr old daughter. Mon- she hated it. Tues- it wasn't fun. Wed- she wanted to leave. Thur- she hated...
- I met a man on Match.com back in January. We have had some really awesome dates. Dancing, dinners, drive inns, cooking for each other, haunted house for Valentines Day. He has been a real gentleman and friend. He's understanding when I grieve, he's...
- It's been over 2 years. I can now discuss some accumulated time and experience with my kids. I had a conversation with my 21 year old son recently. He had some revelations about his grief. Some of his life choices were made in an attempt to avoid...
- At this age, we should be able to have adult discussions about sex. I'm over 2 years into widowhood. I had one partner after my husband's death just because I was tired of struggling with sexual frustration. It didn't last long and I got the full...
- I opened my heart. I fell for this guy. It was easy. Now, I'm struggling with anxiety over fear of losing him too. Damn PTSD. It just kinda appeared over the last week. After he and my kids met, I had a lost feeling. Took me a minute to figure it...
- Had new guy and his daughter over for Easter dinner last night, with all my kids and grandkids and late husband's best friend. It went very well. Everybody got along. My daughter was stand offish. Overall, everybody had a great time. Late husband's...
- Having a hard time. In the last year, I've married off 2 kids and had 2 grandchildren and my daughter turned 16. While for the most part, grief is in the background, it still has its place in my life. Today, I'm upset with my boyfriend for being my...