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3:50 am I woke up. Teen daughter fell asleep with TV on in the living room. Second time this week. It upsets me that it interferes with sleep. Once I get up to turn off TV, my mind gets busy and...

Relax and enjoy. Don't worry about anything else. Just be you and enjoy yourself. Enjoy life. Let life happen. I have a scar. I am always going to have that scar. It's part of who I am. It created a...

After 3 long years, I can finally say that I am grateful for having my late husband in my life. I still find little treasures to help me on this journey that I call life. I have purpose and passion....

For me. I'm cleaning out the dead man's stuff! My Dad's and late husband's. Also, his grandmothers stuff. I'm tired of carrying this stuff around and dusting it. I want my house to be mine. I want...

Maybe all I have to do is pray. So many hurting hearts and I can't say anything or do anything to make it better. God healed my heart and maybe all I can do is pray for others and love them,...

For lessons learned. For hearing me.For loving and never giving up.For giving me this beautiful, broken heart that has the capacity to love again. To feel joy. For changing my worry to worship.For...

Very happy! Christmas this year has been awesome! Just me and ally Xmas eve morning. Then late husband's family Xmas eve afternoon and then finances and his kids that night! Whirlwind of a day but so...

I never would have imagined that I would be a widow at this point in my life. I never would have imagined that I would be a widow 3 xmas' in a row at 43 years old. Or that my heart would be ok. That...

It's interesting how things change. March will be 3 years. I've learned to risk and I've learned to live. Ive zip lined and traveled across the U.S. in faith that financially I would be ok. I've...

My heart opened up. And I need to slow down. It's crazy how good it feels and how good it seems to be going. I'm excited, scared, happy and hesitant all at the same time.I'm going to keep my promises...

They are becoming more frequent. He was helping me around the house. Kitchen. Laundry. It seemed so normal but I woke up from the dream because it bothered me so much. I laid in bed for a long time...

I feel so quiet. And somber. I feel empty at times. I feel lost even though I have direction and purpose. I feel like life moved very quickly and is finally slowing down. In one year I lost my father...

I miss you so much. Words can't even describe the longing I feel for you. I've lived for the last 2 years without you and nothing compares to just one second of being with you. You were everything to...

Yes!Will I?I will try.I believe.I am strong.There is a future before me. And it has more influence on me than the past behind me. I rest in the hands of God. I have conversations with Him. He knows...

Last night, I dreamed that Mike and I were sleeping together. It was just like in the past, before cancer. Skin just inches from mine. I could feel the energy from his body. His warmth, the hair on...