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- Normally I would be embarrassed to post anything about dreams, but it is recurring. It is bothering me. I have dreamed twice now about my husband since he died. Both times I dreamed about him, he wanted another woman. Last night, I dreamed that he...
- It's been one helluva ride. Starting to calm down a but. Whee!!!!!
- I've been reading my journal and wanted to share a couple if things I've discovered. Typically, I just pick up the Bible and start reading. It applies to what we are going through. First, my mind is so busy, all the time and I've tried to quiet it....
- How do you know when you are ready to date? Is it when you are no longer thinking about your late spouse? Is it when your heart is totally healed? Is it when your not afraid of being left alone? So many people say they are not ready, but how do you...
- There is constant rolling turmoil within me. I am so tired of it. Tired of grieving. Tired of being a widow. Tired of trying to figure out who I am now or trying to become the new me. Just so tired. Every day is a struggle trying to understand...
- Recently, in my support group, someone asked when it would get better. When we would return to normal. I don't think there will ever be a return to normal. What I have found is that it's a little like managing diabetes or wearing contact lenses. You...
- I'm going on a date. AAAAAHHHHHH. I thought "this is simple, it's just like going out with friends". Well, I tossed and turned last night, considering so many options. Every time I pray, I'm given peace and I don't believe this guy would be a threat...
- I have three kids ages 20,19 and 14. My husband passed march 24, 2013. Any suggestions for Father's Day? I want to help them but without him, what to do?
- Or your sinking like a stone. Carry on. May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground.Carry on. Carry on. Carry onThis song really lifts me up and soothes me. Thought I would share. It's by a band called "Fun".
- My heart is heavy today. Not sure why. I need sleep and rest. This I know. Does anyone else ever just feel a heaviness in their heart? Or like their heart is being ripped out? It maybe its a stomach thing.... It's a heaviness in my stomach too. I...
- Today, I attended a graduation party. It's been a little over 2 months since Mike died, so I figured.... There was a man there that I had never met. I introduced myself as Melanie. He said, "I know and I'm Paul." He looked very ill. Grayish skin...
- I was thinking earlier about how I learned several years ago that everything in life is grey. There really isn't black and white in life. Then a Texas thunderstorm rolled in with rain and wind. I like watching the storms. It didn't last long. Maybe...
- While my husband was alive, I never looked at other men. (Well, once.) I've noticed the last couple of weeks, really attractive men my age. I'm just looking so I don't feel like I'm "hunting" for a relationship. I know it's probably not a phenomena,...
- My husband was the drummer for Praise and Worship at our church. Yesterday, during the opening songs, we were led through the song "10,000 Reasons" by Matt Redman. This was my husbands favorite praise song. It was the song he chose for his funeral...
- I wonder if something is wrong with me. In the last two weeks, I've cried once. I loved my husband. He loved me. I feel good. But shouldn't I cry more?