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- My new obstacle with fear. Him meeting mine. Me meeting his. He has an ex. Ugh! I have a headstone, with my name on it. (That might be a shocker to him.) Anyway, continuing on the path of widowhood and living life.
- I met this guy on Match. He's 3 years older than me. It's very interesting. We've been dating for 2 months but I can already tell that I am in love with this guy. He's a good guy. He says he feels the same way about me and that he wants to spend...
- And my face is strong. I'm kind of concerned. I know our emotions can swing out of control but mine seems to be on "too much in control" side. I've always been the one to be tough in the face of death or life and death. Today, my friend is at the...
- He texted me and apologized today. Then told me that he was going in circles in his mind and dealing with his own struggles and wanted to explain to me. I declined but accepted his apology and told him I am fine. I told him that I know what it is to...
- My heart is heavy. But I will go on. He told me that we are moving at 2 different paces and want different things. He's wanting to live with somebody within the next 6 months. I've got a daughter who is a sophomore in high school and I'm not...
- There is nothing like feeling love but sometimes that love has to be taken away for us to realize how much it means to us. Last night, I broke up with my boyfriend. He had texted me saying that he is afraid my daughter isn't ready for me to have a...
- I am dating a divorcee and it scares me. It's the unknown. The kids. The ex. His past. The future. So many variables. We've been on 4 dates. I'm trying to stay optimistic and grounded but I've never experienced divorce so I don't feel like I...
- I read this quote today. I realize that when the pain is engulfing, its difficult to believe that there is any good. But, here it is. I want everybody to love themselves deeply. Ive had to learn to love myself after my spouse died. I was so used to...
- Doesn't mean being ok with somebody's behavior but it means letting go. Part of the grief I've experienced has been the in laws removing themselves from mine and my kids' lives. Night before last, they broke my heart. Yesterday, I grieved for the...
- I used to be a very self conscious person who could only dance with a few drinks. Post loss, dancing became a great outlet for me. Exercise, music, forget the world, endorphins and fun! I didn't care what other people saw when I danced. I took some...
- We went out to eat and then to a haunted Valentine House. Yep, I grabbed on tight and flung him between me and the monsters! Afterward we sat and talked for 2 hours. I really enjoyed it and really enjoyed getting to know him. I like him more, so to...
- I am developing feelings for this man. It scares me. It's new. It's not what I have felt in the past for the guys I've dated. In the past I felt chemistry, attraction. I felt appreciative of the attention. I felt I wanted companionship. Last night,...
- I met him on match. Same first name as late husband so I had to really think about whether or not I wanted to pursue anything. After talking to him on the phone, I decided to give it a go. Met him in person and felt attraction. First date: he paid....
- I'm taking St Johns Wort. I've never been a depressed person or taken antidepressants. I have reached times in grief where I felt like I couldn't take anymore suffering. So a few weeks ago, I decided to try this natural medicine. It takes the edge...
- I was afraid of taking care of him while he had cancer. I did it. I was afraid of him dying. I held his hand as he took his last breath. I was afraid of living without him. It's been almost 2 years... I'm doing it. I was afraid of going back to work...