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It's only April  16. How could so much "bad" happen in such a short time in a year? Ot makes me wonder .... it makes me numb. I try my hardest to always find the positive in any negative ~ some...

Easter sort of loss appeal to me in 1989. My dad postponed open heart surgery to spend Easter with my brother, my nephew, my son and me. He died 2 days later. I know in my heart my dad knew he was...

Last week was the 12th anniversary of my son's angel date. It's been an emotiotnal 12 years, and the last few months have been a roller coaster for me. I sit here tonight knowing the little break I...

This week has been beyond painful. They say time heals wounds but that is so not true. Time does not make it easier, less hurtful, somehow magically make it easier to feel less heartache. No amount...

One phrase ... a few words ... and suddenly your entire day is changed. Entire families are changed .... and the question that remains, the question we have all wondered ... WHY?A fellow worker...

People who say STUPID (it's the only word that fits) things about "time heals all wounds", "you should be over this by now" or any other phrases people toss out who have never felt the worst pain any...

I've mentioned so many times that my son's death was just the start of my roller coaster life ... actually it started 4 years before that it just took hindsight to allow me to see all of that. I've...

I live in a small community that sometimes feels like it's too small and at other times you can get lost in it. Today, it felt like a shoe box. It's been 11 yrs this coming March 16th that my son...

I've mentioned many times that I changed career paths after Randy Lee passed away. I loved working with children, making a difference especially when they were misunderstood and being part of that...

I always have a moment where I "cringe" at the words "Merry" Christmas or "Happy" Holidays .... more like "different" Christmas in my world. I actually did okay this year. Different, but okay. We...

I am very good at hiding myself, the real me from others. Few people see beyond my walls I've created and I like it that way. I choose to distance myself in certain areas of my life and I've always...

Today was one of those days I wish hadn't happened. From the moment I walked into work I was bombarded with problem after problem, crisis after crisis. I felt like all I did all day was put out fires...

Stigma ~ it's a nasty thing and sadly is more common than people think. I work in mental health and with the population that knows stigma that has effected them daily. Having a mental...

Fall has always been my favorite time of year. I know some people think it's bleak with all the plants and trees dying but I've always seen it as comforting. The colors all around, crisp air that you...

Two things find me both in prayer and debates with God tonight. The first ... a young local girl seems to be losing her battle with brain cancer. It seems so sad and I ache for her family.she'll be I...