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"There's a positive in every, every negative". I say those words so often ... so, so often ... hearing them, believing them lately is more difficult. Where does one lose that? I mean lose something...

Tomorrow is one of my son's favorite days. He loved Christmas just like his grandpa and Nana did. All 3 of whom celebrate in heaven now. I've written many times that I had a major career change when...

My day started like any other Friday. I was getting ready for work and was logging in to check emails. I had loaded my favorite pic of my son Randy Lee & I onto my laptop as my background this week....

For all those who have messaged, left comments ~ Thank you.One of the things I hate to hear is "You're so strong" but as much as I hate hearing it ~ I know I am. I've weathered things that although...

Struggling and needing strength. I don't ask for that much but I really, really need it right now. It's been a rough few months and I just can't shake this funk. I can't push the dark thoughts...

Today a dear friend of mine joined us all on this path of grief. Her 22 year old son died of unknown reasons. Knowing why doesn't change the ache for us and I know it won't for her. This is a trip I...

Finding a positive in any negative even the passing of my son is a notion some people find odd for a mom to believe. That first year ... maybe a bit more ... I did not honestly believe that 100%....

So orange vs my normal purple. Purple is my favorite color, Orange is Randy Lee's favorite color. I incorporate orange roses into so many of my bouquets for him these days. He loved yellow roses and...

I just keep hearing that song in my head this week ... Shake it out ... Shake it out ... good idea but how does one do that?No matter how hard I try I just can't shake this feeling. I can't get back...

Family is a funny thing. Some times it's our best memories ... some times it's our worst hurt. Close ... distant ... somehow no matter what we always seem to be there when needed. My brother got...

At the end of this month I turn 50 years old. Wow ~ not sure where that lifetime went but here I am. 30 never bothered me ... 40 didn't even phase me yet somehow this milestone makes me feel like...

I never knew love existed to the degree it did until I help my son in my arms. A love that was so wonderful and like none I've ever known before. I never knew pain existed to the degree it did until...

Friendships that span pretty much your entire life are bonds that remain even without daily interaction. I was reminded of this the other day. A friend of mine since we were 7 years old (and we turn...

I normally do a better job with my "face the world" front on days that make my heart ache. Tomorrow is yet another one of those days. Not even a real holiday yet because someone decided to have a...

There has been so much loss this year in my life ... the lives of people I know ... my community. It just seems it's one after another without end. A family member is struggling with a wife who has...