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in about a month, March 16 will be yet another year without my son. 17 years since he left this earth and he would be 35 now. 18 year olds aren't supposed to die, they barely had a chance to really...

One of those song titles that I find a different meaning. I feel like it's the description of my life. I had a tough 2018. Changes at work, more responsibility, feeling overwhelmed, feeling defeated,...

15 years. Its been 15 years since i heard those words "Randy died". I remember the words,  i remember hearing a scream then dropping to my knees. My heart shattered. I've struggled for weeks with...

I haven't been on in some time.  Aside from burying myself in work,  I honestly avoid everyone and everything else. My hear shattered and my life forever changed on 3/16/03 and in May 2016 My life...

Being the mom of an angel numbs you even years after you first heard that horrible news. It changes you ... it can't not change you.  The pain leaves scars on your heart to your very soul. Then to...

I've loved my husband for Ober 15 years.  We got together during a time i was at my lowest. In the middle of my son's addiction,  a split in our family that left me feeling outside looking in on my...

Today is my son's 32rd birthday, his 14th in heaven. I always try to celebrate his birthday because it's still his birth day, he still matters to me and he is still a party of my life.   This yaa i...

let me start by saying I am not suicidal. I have no such plan. My heart Nedd to reunite with my son and for that to happen,  suicide is not the answer. I've had my share...and at times it feels...

Things have been rocky in my life lately and as I have so often since Randy Lee's struggles with addictions started back in 1998 - I've turned to a therapist to help me find answers for myself. I...

"There's always a light at the end of the tunnel". But is there? I either forgot to pay tunnel's electric bill or someone flipped the switch because I'm not seeing it. I've spent over a week with...

How many of us have heard that at one time in life or another ... or at least some version of it? I know I have and I've thought God knows something about me that I don't know about myself because I...

I woke up this morning and after getting ready for work, had a few minutes so I looked on Facebook. Again the first post I see is about the death of a young man from our community. I went to high...

"God never gives you more than you can handle" ~ isn't that how the saying goes?God certainly knows more about me than I know about myself? I'm not sure I have this covered but for some reason ~ God...

I'm not a stranger to depression. I've struggled with it on and off in my life but usually I can work through it with if not a wonderful outcome at least a positive outcome. I must say that March...

I try to stay positive. I try to to put out good vibes, be helpful and do work to help those struggling. What do you do when you're the one struggling?I've successfully kept those that were close to...