arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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The Great Ismic Debate is still chasing through my head this morning. Given that my father's "Sex Education Program" was so heavily inspired by his hatred of Christianity, it is no surprise that it...
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Again I find myself sifting through the bowl of alphabet soup my damaged memory has made of the decades of psychotherapy I have used to recover from my childhood. The crisis of Faith is nothing new....
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I don't know if it is fair to call my father a devout atheist. I donae know that he had a true devotion to anything above his zipper or outside of a beer can, but he often quoted atheist dogma to...
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Again I curse the damaged memory which has made a sloppy bowl of alphabet soup of the many, many psych pros who have guided me on my long and confusing Trail of Tears. One of the psych pros who I...
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During the years surrounding our first separation, Hubs was in a band called, "Fecal Count." I shit you not. . . The band members consoled him frequently, often over the microphone, that his...
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The next step in the fallout from the romantic drama which resulted in Mother being hauled off in handcuffs and the GKs (2 & 5) in protective custody with the other grandparents and Father being...
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Yesterday I mailed the check for the final(?) legal bill on the Breach of Contract in the River Region. I been robbed. Case closed. Healing hopes for all. No exceptions.As I leave the contractor who...
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Yay me! ! ! I stayed on track yesterday and got the piles which started the tit-for-tat skirmish with Hubs to their new cubbies. The piles were all mine, stacked in waiting while I worked to decide...
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One of my most recurrant PTSD flashback sequences is piles. They range from pedophiliac rape on piles of materials ranging from machine shop piles to hay piles to clothing piles to the most used...
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I still believe over-compensating and the self-flagellation attached is my meanest psych symptom. Herstorically, I have committed more destruction by trying too hard than I have by doing nothing....
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I wish this text editor didname force me to double space between paragraph breaks.Continued below. . .
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I've taken to calling the big barn, "The Tinker's Den." This is the spot where the potentials of this investment property feel the most possible to my wandering senses. Dare I believe in those...
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Again I find myself astonished at how a shift so subtle as another name for ^it^ can change my thought patterns. In my personal understanding of the Brain Plasticity theories, those thought patterns...
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So far so good on Hubs's new job. Week one of his continual presence has been pleasantly difficult to find words for. The imaginary accountant, Dapper Dude, has been popping up on my shoulder with...
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The phrase has been haunting me in recent weeks. I amnae certain, but I believe the term comes to me through English Lit circles. A snide comment from a fellow student protesting the forced study of...
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