arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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Anxiety and frustration are running high this morning as I face week two of the unjusted job of hiring a crew to remove the debris pile from the property so I can be on my way to Grand Time. The week...
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According to The Plan currently in litigation, the aeroponics lab/rooftop garden *should* contain the lab equipment, etc., still languishing in Texas right now. I *should* have gotten my grand fix...
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Yesterday was another washout on the effort to have the demolition debris pile removed. The e-sources which have worked so well in other locations are exhausted without results. The coveted grand...
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I let myself have a meltdown yesterday. I am nearly ready to have confidence in allowing the meltdowns instead of wasting energy on fighting them. When I allow the meltdowns, I still have the energy...
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Tracking and memory checks are among my therapy tools. It isnae likely I acquired the tools under those names but I learned them during therapy for my Trauma Induced Amnesia. Very few of my traumatic...
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Stress is a mean phenom. It is an attack on the entire nervous system. What is one to do when under attack by an entire system? Until something better comes along, I think I will continue to step...
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The search for removal of the demolition pile isnae going so well. It's only the first day of actively looking, but. . . The candidates I had screened on the internet during the long weeks of waiting...
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I amnae sure if I am moving on or still balancing the warrior, but I believe that is mostly semantics. The names for my psychotic episodes are more for organization and easier reference than for...
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As I await the next evolution in the Breach of Contract litigation, the contemplation of Formal Legal Breach of Contract Forgiveness continues to bring flashbacks to every Isimator who ever passed...
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I sure hate that the current dream of an aeroponics lab and rooftop garden has been forced into legal proceedings. The dream has already survived a diverse stream of broken promises, all the way back...
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The legal email is sent, proceeding on potentials for legal forgiveness of the current Breach of Contract. It feels pleasantly weird to use the hotly disputed word, "Forgiveness" in a legal context....
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Simplicity is the most cherished accomplishment in my dysfunctionally complicated life. Good luck shutting me up during the early phases of my psychotic breaks. My most trusted supporters seem pretty...
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The meeting with the lawyer went well yesterday. In addition to feeling comfortable being honest and straightforawrd with her, we shared a pleasant array of common interests to provide some stress...
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My psychotherapy toolbox is telling me to celebrate the fact that I got the pieces assembled or the lawyer's appointment tomorrow morning. I have even gotten some great results from plying that very...
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Please no religeous debates or evangilism. I am sorting my strictly personal yaddahs and I am confused enough already. I am tempted to lock this entry to guard against further confusions, but. . ....
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