arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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While leaving room for a renewal of faith in the contractor, I believe I need to remain braced for the worst. Based on the performance of this past two months, it feels entirely possible that...
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Gratitude to the friend who met me for lunch and a shopping expedition yesterday. The birthday for which I needed to shop isnae until the 10th, so I have plenty of time, but the companionship was a...
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My core support network is validating the end of my tolerance for the contractor yaddah blahs. We are in full breach of contract and I am still being stone-walled like a blue haired honey. "I'll get...
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This constructo grapevine nickname was based on the demonstrated fact that if you sent your problem children out with The Arf, they would either come back men or they would not come back at all. The...
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Anybody can do the good days. It's the bad days which tell the real story.Here in the second month of project delays and missed family visits, I feel fully justified in my disgruntled state. Can we...
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Further contemplation of the new awareness has grown the belief that my hyper-sexuality really has crept to the opposite extreme. I can still talk about sex with theraputed ease, as long as it...
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"Chaos Junkie" is among the well-respected dx'es in my charted by peer support network. The geophysical and emotional instability of my childhood have created a life-long addiction out-of-control...
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Between menopause and aging scar-tissue from early sexual trauma, hyper-sexuality has become my most manageable symptom. Or so I have thought. The bizarre twists and turns of the healing network have...
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My energy level seems to have returned, but not my focus. Yesterday was a beautiful, sunny day with temps in the 60's and I still spent most of the day in bed, watching TV, in between out-of-bed...
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All psycho nag flags are waving this morning, from the physical tremors and gut knots to the cursing of the cosmic forces for making me face another day. I'm old and horribly broken since childhood....
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I remember feeling moral outrage when I first heard the notion of fostering gratitude for the hard and unpleasant lessons in life. Off to the Toxic People Landfill with you, rationalizing fool!!!...
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Tai Chi was my personal introduction to the concept of "Chi." I seldom participated in the classes, etc., but the concept of Chi continues to intrigue me at the oddest of moments. My rudimentary...
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Of course my friends in the sub-arctic are laughing at me, but the three inches of snow which fell the day before yesterday have justified another two days of burrowing alone in the house. I did go...
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Still processing the possibility that I have been duped by the contractor. Yes, he is licensed with good references, but at the very least, we are in breech of contract over the deadline at the end...
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Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.My chaotically developed river dream is feeling shipwrecked this morning. The pain and insecurity are whelming. Ouch to the Nth degree. The continued...
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