arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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How many years ago did I begin sorting my psych symptoms into puppet shows? It was one of those techniques that sorta evolved of its own accord. There is no clear anniversary for it. The evolution...
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I find myself lost in ruminations about my eldest niece. She is 40 something now and I lost track of her many names and all the etceteras attached after the 2nd wedding. She openly admits that she...
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I love being a 24/7 person. Every hour of every day has its own special magic. The body's need for rest willnae allow for experiencing all those hours in succession, but the call to shift my sleep...
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The anxiety wasnae too severe yesterday. The few bouts I endured were easily breathed away. My confidence grows that the "Why" compulsion which so standard in my own anxiety thought loops is far more...
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It is still too early to know if yesterday's anxiety has abated, or not. Inventory in progress. . .The Trauma Induced Amnesia which was diagnosed in 1974 has given me insights to memory function...
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My anxiety has been running at near crippling levels today. For now, I am resisting the urge to psychoanalyze it or launch into the compulsive Why loops and strive for mere acceptance of the current...
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"Friendly Flashback" still sounds like an oxymoron to me, despite the fact that I first learned the term, "flashback" in its literary/cinematic context. I don't believe the word started appearing in...
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One of the uncountable gaps in my botanical experience is Devil's Claw on the hoof. The dried husk of Devil's Claw made my awareness on my very first tramp across the Southern Great Plains, decades...
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Painting walls seems to be one of my more effective sorting tools. It is a comparatively simple activity which allows my thoughts to ramble freely through the repetitive motions while leaving a...
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The notion that I should wait for the call of the rivers to be louder than the call of building maintenance and Breach of Contract is sitting well. This morning still finds me fuzzy and without much...
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Still no clear thoughts or feelings on where I want to be. I feel a bit like I'm caught in a time warp. Have I been here six weeks already? Am I still on the grab stop en route to the river region or...
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Am I in danger of getting too good at doing nothing? Herstorically, my hyper-active metabolism has put doing nothing somewhere between difficult and impossible for me. Attempts to sit and do nothing...
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Prophecies of my brilliant writing career were a side effect of the speech defect which held me mostly mute until preadolescance. I was writing prolifically long before I had the confidence to say,...
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I love blaming things on the weather. It lets me pass judgement and defer responsibility without hurting anybody's feelings. When I imagine the weather as an entity I can talk to, I imagine it...
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Saturday morning when Hubs and I went to the barn so he could see the new toy, we discovered a flat tire. On investigation, we discovered a good-sized hole in the sidewall. Ouch. Tire sidewalls...
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