there is still hope

i feel like everything is moving v.e.r.y. s.l.o.w.l.y. slowly digest everything as it comes, and just listen, take it in. respect feelings. i have to respect his feelings even though i obviously don't even know how to respect my own. what a person to be with someone who's borderline, eh?
be in the moment. feel. don't suppress. you'll never be able to understand his feelings if you don't let yourself feel your own.
i don't have to agree with what he tells me, but i don't have to fight back. clearly that never works. it's ok just to listen. it's easier just to listen. i already know he'll punish himself for his feelings whether i say anything or don't, so why escalate anything? why reinforce how bad he feels for feeling what he feels?
this is a very tricky game.