Feeling proud of myself
So often when I feel the impulse to do something pleasurable my scope is so filled with nothing else that I just think to myself'why not?!!'
I was in my room at the monastery and I thought about this and just started to pray. It grounded me in that I started to think about my therapist and then I thought about looking at my to do list to see if there was anything else I should be doing. Well those things bore fruit and I did check off another thing off my to do list and then I came out to visit Westminster. Things are good.
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and also very thankful for on the drive back I so searched answers in my feelings - which
are a bottomless pit at times - and so I decided to pray - I have a prayer rope with a cross on it
hanging from my car rearview mirror - and i realized a focal point like that can create all
the continuity I need to not feel overwhelmed or disjointed from my experience -
it really was a good thing.
I’m glad you feel strength in prayer. I have been praying a lot lately.
thanks Nikki!
definitely worthy of a celebration, markus questionarius. you felt, you recognized, you balanced. way to do the do, my darling you.
grounding talismans are high on my own list of calming tools. yes, a focal point like that can create all the continuity needed to stay present in the here and now. they work for nightmares, too. it works when i work it.
and then we get to prayer. . . letting prayer be a part of everything i do lengthens to distance between my broken brain and my cutting tongue.
thank you so much Arfie. You are so wise and a great source of knowledge. peace!