good morning!

I stayed in bed until around 910am or so today.

Pretty late for me but the headcold got a lot worse over night.

At one point, I coughed so hard that Blue meowed and came over to me

and laid across my belly and chest. So cute.

I did go down for lunch and now I am back here.

It's crazy how my mind works sometimes, but I am so glad I have

had this place and have had my mission in life to grow and be self

responsible as much as I can.

For some reason, in spite of the good vibes people have sent me this

morning, I went down to the chapel projecting that I was unliked or unloved

and I just kept my distance from that kind of feeling. I tried to not affirm it -

and I tried not to let 'one hint of it' determine my global view...does that make

sense to anyone?? I just realized, after lunch, it was time for me to take care of my relationships

in life. Be 'self responsible.' I feel like I haven't done that so much since I have been here at the monastery,

I reckon that it's been because I have been devoting that energy to learning and acclimating to 

things here. :) Sending peace and good vibes! It's officially the holidays and happy holidays to you guys

and yours!! :)