Good news

I woke up this morning. I was of two minds. I felt controlled and subsequently angry about my situation here.But then I thought if I had the opportunity to live life as however I liked, would I not have a sheepish fear of things still?. I decided to think about that and I came to the conclusion that I may be controlled by the relationships in my life partly but I also have agency at times to do what I wish. I supposed that many feel such a way about their lives, work and commitments. Before reaching this conclusion I was lashing out inside at the people around me. Having a sense of nastiness which i gratefully reality checked. I was unsure of myself and so it turned into an ‘acting out’ in my mind, which gratefully I reality checked.  Things are good. I just wanted to say hi. The future is unclear but it seems as though I am coming to Oklahoma. I sincerely hope to be able to have a job too though there are no affiliates of Albertsons here yet. :(