going to bed late! bucking the trend

I decided to get out of the house (rectory) a little bit tonight.

I drove up to the intersection nearby where they have a 7-11

and a liqour store caddy corner to it.

In Maryland they don't sell alcohol in markets or convenient stores.

Only in liquor stores can you buy alcohol.

So I bought some beer and some beer nuts and stuffed

my face as I drove home. Victory... comes in small packages! LOL

I think my illness tells me that it's not be safe or ok to be me.
Do any of you experience something like that?

Feeling better tonight about allowing myself some human kindness

directly from myself - some lattitude to live life experiences outside

of the strictness of prudent frightened behavior and habitiuations.

I don't have the answers - but I love talking to you guys about

any answers you can muster - I guess I lied - I try to have the answers

for myself - and I suppose peace love and kindness and understanding

is my theme song.